Step 3: Trust in God

Last week was step two, and it was about having hope and believing that God loves me enough to help me overcome my addiction.  When I wrote about step two all I had was the desire to believe.  Over the course of the week and after praying more about it, and other trials I've been going through right now, that desire to believe has grown into real faith.  Sunday night I had a long talk with my mother and it helped me a lot to feel better about a trial that caused a huge relapse a couple weeks ago.  It helped me get my motivation back to take care of myself, and achieve my other goals too.  Then in group yesterday we talked about how God can love us no matter what we have done in the past.  God loves us because He is perfect, not because of anything we did or didn't do.  He is perfect and loves us perfectly regardless of our flaws and faults because he is our Father.

Thankfully this progress was enough to be ready for step three.  Decide to turn your will and your life over to the care of God the Eternal Father and His Son, Jesus Christ.  Somehow once I had the faith that God loves me and will help me overcome this, deciding to turn my will over to Him seemed a natural progression.  I feel as though this is what I have been working toward all along and something I've been striving for throughout my life.  I think that turning my will over to God with regards to this addiction involves using prayer to help with problems I face rather than using Facebook as my go-to source for the solutions to my problems. I know that God knows me and my problems better than any Facebook friends ever will through even the most extensive post about them.  I find that often I end up having to make further explanations in comments to correct false assumptions or answer questions and I end up more hurt and frustrated than I was before asking for advice from others there.  God knows me and my problems perfectly and will never give me bad advice or judge me for asking.  Continuing to strive for a clean home and maintaining healthy habits, rather than sitting around on the computer all day is another way to give my will to Him.  These last things are goals I've already been working towards for the past couple months and will continue working on likely the rest of my life.